The 11th of November 2024
It's been a while since my last post! I had not really made the conscious effort to not make new entries but it just sort of happened I suppose. Every once in a while it is a good idea to take a little break even if you didn't intend on taking one, especially in the chillier months. The sun is setting so early now and at times this does feel a little demotivating. I think I will personally feel a little warmer when the first Christmas decorations will appear.
I'll admit that I've tried to write out this post a few times now but every single time that I looked back on what I had written I felt like it was so chaotic. Bits and pieces about work being difficult, reflections on loose leaf tea and candles that smelt too sweet. I just think that the last few months have been a little hectic for me and now I feel like my spirit is a bit scrambled which was reflected in my writing.
Maybe writing it out was a little cathartic but I don't feel like any of it was really coherent enough to fling out into the wide open world. I don't really set out to have all of my entries have a specific topic but I'd like it to at least have a certain flow to it all. I guess the flow to this entry will be a little wavy, I don't think it's a bad thing. Life isn't always perfectly pleasant but mine is alright at the moment. The water is just a little harsher than usual.
So I've just been kind to myself lately, I've been planning in my free days for the rest of the year and trying to think on how I can ensure that I'll have a calmer 2025. I'm currently in a project at work that is rewarding but not sustainable for long periods. I'd love to find another project where I can have a deeper insight into certain aspects of the job but one that is less focused on excessive productivity.
I've also been active in trying to make sure that my bedroom is really only filled with the items that make me the happiest. I've gotten some silly little ceramic mushrooms with lights on the inside. They're rather silly looking, little chubby mushrooms but they do look very sweet. I think I'm very much in my forest wandering era at the moment.
To add to the effect I've also gotten some lovely faux greenery for the empty spaces. At a local furniture store I bought some branches that are just lovely. I bought two that mimic the popular Chinese lantern plant, one in a creamy beige and the other in a more orange tinted brown. Another branch seems to be fashioned after the firethorn bush, this one is a lovely orange shade though. It really cheers up the corner of my desk, although currently they're tucked between the desk and the wall as I don't have a proper vase yet. A tiny potted plant and a candle hide the strange placement.
As per usual I am also always listening to music, which is really the best way to soothe my nerves in any type of situation. I've been making an effort to look into listening to new music (At least, new to me) and I've discovered some wonderful artists to add to my library. One of those is Happy Rhodes, I've been having a great time delving into her extensive discography.
She has a marvelous voice, she has been compared to Kate Bush and I can definitely hear this. In a lot of her songs she can sound eerily similar. However they're still very different artists despite both being very rooted in the raw human emotion and our connection to nature. Maybe in a future post I'll delve a little deeper into some of my favorite tracks.
However right now I believe it's time for a cup of warm tea and maybe a little sweet snack. I'll spend the rest of the evening relaxing and trying to get over my rather persistent cold. I may watch a movie if my energy levels can take on the concentration effort, we'll see.
- Quite unrelated, but I feel like this picture describes the warmth that I'd like to feel from fall -